Ya'at'eeh, Preevyet ("hello" in a languages I know so little of) This is going to be a great! I can see already we will have a lot of fun with this whole new blog thing. I sure do hope you all enjoy this kind of stuff. Personally I could do without but I am trusting it is the alternative sent by God enabling my self to be all I can be. Snail mail just does not work for me. I'm starting to see how the Internet can save time and money. Are you like me, in seeing how hard it is to keep in touch with each dear soul God brings to touch our lives, become frustrate or overwhelmed? For me it is a chore I do not look forward to. It is a real struggle for me to meet new people and form a new friendship, then when it comes to saying goodbye, you exchange info., while knowing in the back of my head that it is highly unlikely I will stay in touch or even continue to build on the relationship. If you know me, you know it is not for lack of words that I struggle rather lack of discipline.
I just want to be understood!
YOU KNOW?
No one likes to be misunderstood and thought of as a lying hypocrite.
So here I am just one person trying to realize that there are a lot of you out there. With all you new & used ( smile ) acquaintances, as well as my huge and wonderful family, I must make a true effort at being what I am suppose to be to you. I love you guys! Did you know my name means "Gift from God?" I know each of you were brought into my life for some real cool reasons. I am going to endeavor (starting with this blog) to be the family and the friend that I am met to be to each of you while here on this planet. You can do the same! . . . After I'm gone it's up to you though, you know, to continue our relationship (and join me in Heaven.)
I am finding that the more I'm around you people (people in general), the more I love you. : ) I really never have been the friend I could have been or should have been to most of you. (maybe some of this "rambling " grows from a desire to improve as well as repair what's done). "Social" in some ways maybe, but a true friend naw. I just wanted attention mostly. Shirr we shared a few laugh, I was always ready to have a good time or share my time, who cares as long as we were passing time. It did not matter to me then at whose expense my actions would take their toll nor what kind of consequences my aloofness would bring. Yes, that was then and now today I am realizing again how selfish I was wile interacting with people. I know Jesus has changed my desire & THAT is really good news. The fact still remains "I am a work in progress" yes, only this time the One who made me is changing the bad and making me glad. :) Thank you for being patient along with me.
A true friendship and building a healthy relationship are whole new concept for me. I have heard of them, aswell as some of the things that should be included in them in order for them to work, but as far as experiencing one, I never did, (until recently of course.) I know you all know about the relationship I have with Jesus. He truly is the One that is teaching me how to become a better friend and brother. If there is any thing good seen in me it is really and truly only because I am in a relationship with Him. I want to continue this relationship with Jesus! He is teaching me so much about a lot of things. The day I die is going to be so great because I'll be with Him and understand. If I sound a little crazy to some of you or don't make sense to others, maybe it's cause you did not hear the full conversation. You see we talk all the time (Jesus and me). (I know you think I'm crazy) Listen though; by you thinking that, He is telling me something very important. By Him making it easy to share with you, He is telling me something else; and now I get to share with you which is like giving my love to Him. It is really I would say "crazy cool" to be in a relationship with Jesus.
One big thing that must be included in a healthy relationship is respect. I am just now learning this. There is a lot of definitions that could be given to respect but I thing the best one that explains it for me is, "doing to others as I would like them to do to me." Like I already mentioned I just now am learning this one so thank you for your patience. I know I'll be practicing with you as long as we are together. So for now let me start practicing by, 1. Apologize for rambling, 2. Tell you all (even you guys that think I'm crazy) I love you, and 3. Pull a conclusion out of the hat. . .
"Sorry"~"I love you"~"THE END"
